Just when I needed you most . (:

Holidays are like ending and I'm still so desperate
what to do?
I don't know.
I really wanna hang out everything but this is just not gonna happen.
Watching dramas everyday.
The Vampire Diaries...Gossip Girl..Nikita...everyday waiting for their release o.o
Going to singapore next week.
I wanna feel alive please.
Just hope everything will be fine.


And I miss you (:

I am such an idiot.

Yea. I know everything's too late too make them right. Too late. I actually kinda regret about it. Sorry that I did such a thing to you. I realised that I'm so damn wrong. Just hope that you will forgive me one day. Sincerely. This is the thing I will remember forever. How you treat me. How you cared. Yea. you got one girl that you love now. Although she is not that into you yet, I believe you both will make a great couple in the future. I will meet mine too. Everytime when you ask me "Do you miss me?" I really want to say yes. but I can't. I will lose control of myself. Now, I'm like a fake person trying to hide all my feelings. Thanks to my BFFs that give me sunshine when I really needed it. Warm inside =) Look forward and there he will be waiting for me, right? That's the only thing I believe in now. Now, I couldn't care less about you. Goodbye, passerby.

Everything is fine, perhaps,

Aww I miss school quite a lot.
All of us laughing together.
ahha
Next year is a brand new year again.
I want to make some changes.
But I cant figure it out yet.
LOL
Am I lost?
Still dont know what to study after I graduate from chong hwa.
An aunt from Aus ask me not to study criminal phsycology.
NO FUTURE wor.
haha
pharmacist?
maybe. haha

Yea.
maybe I'm a little into him.
but I knowhe loves her so god damn much.
and i cant even stay inside his heart for a milli second.
buddies forever huh?


I love to talk with you dear.
I feel totally relieved.
Love you forever my dear HLWY <3
Skype soon x))


Miss you guys a lot <3

Random

Looks like I'm starting to get over him
this feels great
but he is still the very special guy for me


I dulan ppl easily
recently
I dont know why
I'm so annoyed with this
why so many disgusting ppl around me?
LOL

So sad with myself
useless
can't even control feelings of myself
It's time to say goodbye
Although I hate goodbyes
I had to
No point of loving you anymore
just more scars and pain


Vice president next year.
OMG
I'm so not prepared with that
but I will try my best <3


Hey guys
watch the vampire diaries.
It's really great.
AND STEPHAN SALVATORE is so damn HOT xD
haha.

Thanks for being by my side.
I love you forever.
But how long is forever?


I'm so freaking out right now.
What the hell?

最近做了一个心理测验
很准咯
是测你最念念不忘的人

结果:
没有追到的人
这样的人是最让你着迷的，可能你在有了新的交往对象以后也会对这个人念念不忘。因为你是一个完美主义者，因为得不到所以才不知道缺陷在哪里，于是就会在自己的意识里不断的美化对方和这段感情，完美得让你留念不已。


哈哈
超准的咯
整个在讲我酱





原来你是这样的人
你说过那都是谣言
但是当事者说出了真相
承认吧
你就是那种人
我看错你了



我想注明一下
我现在单身
很多人都不相信我
说我骗他
==
相信我啦








我好像有点喜欢他
但是我们永远不可能
因为你是我的好朋友
只适合当好朋友的朋友









Puzzling =)

真

已经分不清真假了
有些人对你好真的不是真心的

心
再一次失望

那道墙越来越高了



我发觉我越来越会演戏了
明明就不开心还可以笑到酱
喊到酱


我要一个人

我喜欢一个人




但是我不喜欢寂寞

假期的用处

每一次假期
总会想好多好多
想起以前的事
现在的事
那些事也许没得再改变
但至少可以反省以前的我



最近
有一位小学同学找上我了
他告诉我为什么小学的时候都没人敢跟我说话
因为我太 lanc ==
或许是吧
或许我现在还是
只是没有那么明显



是我不会做人吗?
我只是不喜欢讨好别人
有错吗？


你知不知道我很需要你
我打给你
你没有接
也没有问我到底发生什么事
你是我很相信的人
没有什么
只是很不开心
所有的心事只能对自己说
能相信的人越来越少了


希望我还能坚持下去
=)



喂
我从来没有后悔过告诉你
当我决定告白的时候
我是很确定的
不要忘记我好吗？
都几个月了
一封简讯好不好




原来想念比失去更难受啊

Ah soon 叫我 update 的 xD

Many things happenned actually.
Don't know where to start.


Fong Wei Jian
thanks for listening to my "fei huas"
but i still wont tell you who is that xDDD
haha.
wo hen sayang ni de x)

Sean
Shocked when you called me.
almost midnight.
So high talking about the topic.
I didn't did that la.
hehe.

Ho Lee Wan Yi
I miss you damn much. sibeh much xD
Call you when I'm free.
I know you"re busy =)
Love ya always.




It's the time to end all this. =)






Soon, leave comment ar xD

Firstly, thanks to
Lee Gen
In Seong
Wan Yi
Ling
Michiko
Sing Nee
Lee Win
Leshin
Ying Wai
Lit Jie
Cai Ling
Yan Mei
Sean
Hao Xuan
Zyien
Cheng Soon
Zora
Victor Lim (teacher)
Yee Jiat
Su Xian
Jun Cheng
Tiong Chin
Huai En
Kae Mun
Ken Yee
Zhai Yun

Thanks for the messages.
I got it.
touching =)


Thanks to
Wei Jian
Susan
Hui Ru
See Neng
Yoong Hao
Jia Yi
Chong Guan
Jionn

they told me happy birthday at school


A big love for Siew yong che and Michiko x)
both of them came from far away to give my presents
I Love the presents and the CARDS xDD

Leshin Holy Litjie
thanks for the cute bear <3
Jia Yee
thanks for the bag <3

those who wished me happy birthday at facebook.
thanks a lot =D


Xi wen, thanks too.
All the best for your future <3

thanks, nico =)

Thanks, keegan xD

Justin xD of course i remember you =)

Happy Sweet 16 to me !!<3









他忘了我的生日
也忘了我
那太好了

我犹豫了.

这几天
休息的时候
一直想着我和你的事
这样下去
值得吗？
还是该放手了？

一天晚上
随便收了书包就睡了
然后梦到他
他问我为什么没有带刘明华的file
一起来
我果然没有把它放到书包里
突然觉得有他
好幸福


原来幸福可以那么简单


好喜欢下一站幸福
好久没看过那么感动的戏了
还是我最近不够坚强？
任光晞和梁慕橙是注定要在一起的







原来我不敢拥有，也害怕失去。

WTH

I don't need your sympathy.
keep it for yourself.
you need it =)



做好人做太久是会累的
最近很容易就不爽
臻谐，我对不起你
谢谢你能够忍受我的坏脾气





炜键
我相信你啊
你讲出来你就死惨惨了
xD



俐欣
谢谢你愿意陪我聊天
我真的很爱你 =p
有你很幸福





我的'老公' xD
我相信你
是我对自己没有信心
小心照顾自己
xp









原来化学比物理难
一直要背背背 ==

A thank you post =)

谢谢你从去年陪伴我到现在
陪我度过伤心，快乐
你知道我所有的梦
你知道我是怎样的人
所有的秘密你都懂
最关心我的人
最让我心疼的人
对自己好一点

谢谢你
我永远的好朋友 =)






I thought you knowed me
you didnt even try to trust me.
I'm badly hurt when I saw you.
not even a glance.











I love you more than ever. <3




你应该知道是你吧 xD

Get out of my world. please.

I felt so much better these days.
I don't need to care about the strawberry's feelings.
I'm free!!!!

Thanks to
Ho Lee Wan Yi
Choy Ying Wai
Sean Lim
Loh Leshin

They comforted me =)
I love you all <3

Things are better now.
kei, i love you
you're always in my buddy list =)
always in my heart <3


someone asked me to stop giving him hope
maybe i really should
although i liked him =)

Life still goes on.

LOL
可以不要吗
拍照就拍照啦

还要讲
心乐肥不肥？
肥~




够力炸到










原来没有人了解我
她们以为我是那种人






我不是。

Sometimes we need to leave all these pain
and start living by ourselves.

错过

我开始anti这两个字了
我告诉自己不能为他再哭

我一个月没有哭了




但是那天看到他之后


眼泪在晚上的时候不受控制的流了下来




我好想他

他很成熟

很可爱









你可以不要酱wai吗？
不要喜欢我啦
你喜欢她更好
我真的觉得你很烦
还好济安 忠源 涌浩 帮我解围o.o






我爸爸一直叫我去新加坡读书
我想去爱尔兰的
他说太远
他怕它会想我 xD
过后就讲去澳洲咯


谁去澳洲的跟我讲
=）

今天很累
跑步跑了三圈
涌浩说奇迹 ==
可能是因为康涌唱歌给我听呱
然后一个人走去bustop
然后那个bus没有停titiwangsa
所以在chowkit下车
再走回titiwangsa TT
脚都要断了



onion's line
如果美是一种罪 我早就犯下滔天大罪
我好羡慕你 因为你没有罪





突然好想答应你
LOL

Satisfied.

All these are driving me crazy.
I tried but I really can't.

Two is better than one.
Maybe.





I think i might be falling for him.
A little.





I love this line
你喜欢一个人多久
就需要多久的时间忘记他
i think so.


I still miss him.
sometimes.
happy birthday my best friend =)






4/1
玩了很多人以下
芷欣
我跟他讲我看到他回来
她很兴奋的咯
然后她懂我玩她
一直讲我今天特别yong sui xD
wanyi
第一个玩我的人==
还有好多人
不过还是mich的反应最好笑
xD



happy birthday to ren wei and ji hwa =)



sean said this.
你想一下
你跟他接吻的话
你会不会很兴奋
如果没有的话
就是说你不喜欢他


it makes sense .









what the hell am I thinking ==

tagged by dodo =)

♥规则：


一，被点者请在自己的网志上打上答案 ♥

二，请传给另外十个 人 ♥

三，传阅人请在 这十位被点的人的留言板上通知他，他被点咯! ♥

四，这当中的十位不得拒绝 ♥

五，被点者请注明被谁点了在哪里接到再传给下十位 ♥

六， 这些被点名者，你们被点会祝福 ♥

七，不可回点哦，并且愿望会实现和得到幸福 ♥



♥ 坐上幸福热气球，开始咯~ ♥



幸 福热气球：第一阶段

1.绰号：新月 乐乐

2.星座：金牛

3.生日：19 May

4.兴趣：many eh o.o

5.血型：O

6.最宝贵的东西：my friends and family.

7.最讨厌的东西 ：fa qiao de ren ==



幸福热气球：第二阶段

1.有喜欢的人吗：dont know eh

2.有交往吗：没有

3.幸福吗：yup =D

4.他很爱你吗：-



幸福热气球：第三阶段

1.你被谁点：DoDo

2.他是你的 : friend

3. 他的个性是：sha sha de xD

4.他长得怎样：bo hen da xD

5.跟他认识多久：2 years ++

6.你想跟他说什么：dai bo xD

7.如果他变成你的情人：impossible la xD



幸福热气球：第四阶段

1.最爱的音乐：Soul music =) or acoustic d

2.最爱的季节：winter

3.最爱的卡通：Conan

4.最爱的颜色：apple green xp

5.最想去的国家：Australia..Paris...Italy

6.最爱的水果：Durian and mango

7.最爱的饮料：Ice blended caramel frapuccino x)

8.最爱的人：all of you =)



没有幸福热气球：第五阶段

1.你很爱哭吗：since i liked him ==

2.你很爱笑吗：yea xDD

3.你是很有信心的人吗：most of the time

4.你想要怎样的生活：simple but sweet .

5.你喜欢自己吗：yup. but i hate myself when i'm rude.

7.你喜欢睡觉吗：yea xD hen shuang d =p

8.你喜欢唱歌吗：yup.



超爱幸福热气球：第六阶段

开 始点名：

1. mel

2. joyee

3. holy

4. yw

5. LeShin

6. onion

7. in seong

8. mun chun

9. sean

10. mich

I can't even hear myself think. ;D

It's really happy chatting with all of you...mel...sean...munchun =)
hao high xD
when thay say MORE FISH xD
LOL
I've never felt that happy =D
I laughed.
haha.





So what you want actually?
talk to me please.
=)





Biiao emo eh sean
I miss my Avril Lavigne CD T.T


mun chun
dont like this la...
i so sayang you de eh.



MEL, i support you =p





HolY, sorry eh.
I know you love me x)

I'm taking back my love
I've given you too much =)






So
I went to church xD
many people there =)
i saw a lengzai xD
don't know what;s his name
but he looked like leehom xD
he's the photographer


In my group there's
Ivan
Clarissa
joshua
Gabriel
erm actually I can't really remember all their names x)




Jay
I'm waiting for you leh
I need your new album to cure my wounds =D
I know it will xD












Oooops.

死洋葱
谢谢你的五十块啦
你在我心目中还是很好的啦
只要你不再欺负我











Why you have to go and make things so complicated?






If you're here
I can love you =)

i'll never regret. I think i've done my best. Maybe this is the ending. We need to face the truth.don't we? I tried my best to make you happy. You're the one that can really make me happy everytime i'm down. Just that. About being together i really cant promise you.

I dreamed again. That's not you. It's him.



Probably just an illegal valentineB-)

我很乱

会不会太快了？

错过两年了
=)





再错过吧？

我终于看开了

原来看开的感觉那么好
他过得很好
我很安慰

一年了
他住在我心里一年了
要把它搬走
真的好难
但是我做到了




现在我的心好空


等到我放弃了
那个喜欢我的人已经不喜欢我了
好失败




我问yw
zomok酱多人pakto的har?
它讲你也可以的嘛

我真的可以吗？



一见钟情真得好痛
除非那个人也喜欢你啦
不然真得好辛苦




拜托你们可以不要一直zat我吗？
我不是莱佛士花 ==
至少给我一点休息的空间
因为我真得好累


也不知道累什么
冲凉冲到一半会忘记自己洗了头没有
走路走到一半忘了自己要做什么
装水装到满了出来

我到底怎么了？
我也不想emo的
我也不想考试考到一半想睡觉
我也不想一个人发呆到深夜



希望这一切都会过去
=)



waiye...
不要再给人骗了
五十块很多叻



最近常常找你聊天
原来我还很需要你
谢谢你的陪伴
我很爱你的啦
x)

除了混乱还是混乱

他的生日要到了
还有一个月xD
烦死我了
不懂要买什么给他 ==


今天
演讲比赛
我真的很high的
我也不想emo
不知道为什么很想哭

康涌
你说婆婆不好
婆婆不孝
婆婆di*o不到
==

涌浩
谢谢你啦
虽然没有奶喝
妈咪我爱你 xD


meow~
不要一直gap他啦
我的比较帅 xD



丽君
谢谢你的肩膀
很温暖一下
x)


文俊
谢谢你唱歌给我听
我不要你出家 =D




waiye
不要跟踪我 xD




God bless me.

we're far apart

hope that you're still here


hope that i can still see your smile


hope that you still cares about me


hope that you're here beside me








just hope.

I dreamed of him.

he's still that charming.
he's standing with a girl.
he didn't see me.



and that girl is not me.












修杰楷好帅!<3

curious?

hehe
sorry.
i can't tell all of you first.
i'm scared.
LOL

btw
i'll tell all of you here when it's the time =)


I need to consider all of them ==










I hate oranges ==

crush?

haha.
maybe i'm too boring or what.
I want a people to love me =)
he treats me quite good.
so i'm a little into him
LOL


the waiye teacher.
dont know why she just saw me sleeping.
many people sleeping lo ==
maybe my eyes too big.
kelip mata macam tidur gua ><





I want you =)

the title of the last post is way too long

so no title for this time. LOL

i just finished the 1st season of Gossip girl

really nice =)

I love Blake lively(left)
OMG! she's hot and gorgeous

Leighton meester(right) is cute too

just like a princess <33

so i love the GG series...

and i love the character-gossip girl

school reopen T.T

I miss 4SRen

I miss myself.

i think i had get over him

somehow

finding a new one perhaps?

who knows?

p/s remember...no texting =)

Happy cny.dont know why I cant type in the box with my phone.mel,i updated xD I just saw what you left in my drafts thanks.holy,i miss you too.xoxo

虚伪

我想我还在幻想里面
一直都走不出来

以为自己还有希望吧


其实我真的很不开心


上物理真的很痛苦
听不懂
当别人都在认真听课
发现自己听不懂
才忽然发现什么是孤独


好想哭
哭完无助



对不起
我误会你了亲爱的
我很不应该
我会学着去信任我身边的人
原谅我好不好
=)


有人告诉我
原来很多人都知道我是谁
只是不认识我


文俊说我走路很优雅 lol



荣河很wai =.=


2/5 happy birthday kar hooi =)
2/7 happy birthday justin xD
2/8 happy birthday anlynn x)
2/17 happy birthday michiko <3
2/19 happy birthday kah yan =D
2/23 happy birthday yi theng xD
2/24 happy birthday ning si =)

TITANIC 8D

真的好感动的一套戏
看完过后
第二天想到还是会哭
当jack在rose的面前死掉
整个很感动
才认识几天的人
就能那么相爱
<3




你显不显哦
不要再一厢情愿了
很辛苦的
=)




我妹在厕所洗脸
我弟看到
弟:"zomok你擦lotion?"
妹:"我在洗脸"
弟:"zomok你用colgate洗脸？"

==
笑到我肚子痛
好可爱



原来两个好朋友争同一个男人是这样的
o.o

It's me

1/29 is probably the happiest day in my life
i had never felt like that before
it's just when you see a people you missed for days...
and the person is standing right in front of you
those feelings
really hard to describe

I thought he lied
I shouldn't think of that
I should had trust him
Sorry =)

anyway
thanks x)

thanks to jie ying and qian hua
they told me he will come d =D

thanks to ying wai...
he asked me to call him =)

thanks to joey =)
she heared patiently when I was talking about him =)

thanks to i-lyng
she called him xD


laykun asked me a question
why you don't mind other people knows?
i answered
because I really love him x)
LOL



hope you're not shocked after seeing this
haha =D


xin chun miao hui =)
I really worked hard for it...
I beg people to buy it
those who saw my text message
thanks for coming
love all of you xD


I really love 4SRen
especially when we play true or dare
I went to the front and ask our chinese teacher 1+1=?
he still answer me 2 xDD
then tell zesu he sot dao me le ==
stand in front of the class and ban cute =D
I never though Yap Xin Le will do this kinda things
precious memories =)

Yoo In Seong
ni hen wai xD
"lengzai waiye" xD
shuang ma? haha


ah kei =)
i miss you
I will try to maintain our friendship till forever
BFF <3
i love you

holy
don't think too much
do what you want.
I'll be by your side.







waiting for our next talk =D

缘分？ lol

he came back N times...
i saw him 0 times...

why like this ehh??


suan liao lo...
just hope he still remember me lo...
thanks yan mei xD
i know how deep it is xD


lol
form 4 school life is really quite tough for me T.T
just try my best ba =)




dear waiye...
dont make yourself too busy ar
remember i love you xD
i dont want see you like that again =D



董顺忠说老婆不一定要等结婚后才叫
老婆=honey=香蕉
说实在的
那香蕉是什么？
==




诗喻生日快乐啊！！<3

damn..i miss all of them

i miss 3 zhong
i miss shing ying xD she will hug me when ever she saw me
i miss joey..when she said she need to find a man
i miss how yee..when she was so high talking about his guy
i miss wei yi...he will show his broad smile to me
i miss lit jie.. when he say really? xD
i miss zhen han...he said he missed me xD
i miss fish =) when she says yap xin le ni hen wai x)
i miss ying wai..he ask me why you so cool de?
i miss ren wei...when he said that xDD
i miss sheh yee...when we used to talk about minho xD hao high
i miss hui min xD we will laugh together xD
i miss joyee...she will scold HIM XD







i miss him...when he said i dont care
when will he come back?
lol ==

mermaid, ni hen wai ==


chong guan and zhen xie...
i admit ><
but just dont do that again
i kinda believe everything someone said =)

豪杰问我为什么没有跟他hi xD


yw说他跟我sms多过wj


和婉伊交换便当


益杰和人伟叫我lenglui ==


忠源喜欢跟我吵架


艾玲说我走路很奇怪


愉洁说我很像芷欣


刘明华说我很像在哪里见过（微笑比赛==)


我和艾玲去找莲姐谈天


我和诗喻成了bulletin的pereka cipta


我的物理给发哥教 =)


我们几个在太阳下gok sauna xD


他回来我没有见到他 TT


我和艾玲一起叫某人waiye xD


arock主动跟我hi xD


文俊说要唱歌给我听


突然变成董顺忠老师的亲戚 ==


请芷欣吃巧克力 =)


爱上了gossip girl


欣霓，辛苦你了


朋友们， 我爱你们哦！
<3

experiment xD

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开学了 xD

原来高一真的很痛苦一下

才上了一个星期的课



好像过了一个月那么久




课室又酱远
又没有仔gap（虽然那里也好像没有啦）



他有回来





我没见到他 T.T






who wants to view my private blog?
haha
ask me.
<3



曾经这两个字好恐怖







0.0

是我想太多














离你远远的比较好








很好玩吧？ ;-)

2010

我好开心
在新的一年还会有他的陪伴
本来以为今年不会再和他有任何联系的
好意外



婉伊
谢谢你
在2009年的最后一天
你让我好开心

还有祖怡
=)


希望大家幸福快乐!





他还是那么可爱